embodiment – Julianne Vantland

Gratitude and Grief

It’s been 7 years since we lost our first child. Selah. She was just a small wisp of a person. We discovered her existence and then mourned her parting in the space of a week. Easter week. One bright blue pregnancy test, then another, weaker, a few days later. Then the blood. It was soContinue reading “Gratitude and Grief”

From Reformed to Rohr: how a good girl with all the answers found God in all the wrong places

I first encountered Father Richard Rohr few years ago in podcast form. My children were still toddlers and the gym was my one hour of silence to listen to something that wasn’t pbs kids and to think my own thoughts uninterrupted. I stretched out on a yoga mat after my workout, my earbud headphones dangling downContinue reading “From Reformed to Rohr: how a good girl with all the answers found God in all the wrong places”

Mom, am I too big?

It’s a familiar routine. I sit cross legged on the pink shag rug in Evelyn’s room, trying to coax her out of her clothes and into pj’s. She resists, frantically emptying every last thought from her head before the door is closed and she is left alone with her thoughts all night. There’s always aContinue reading “Mom, am I too big?”

a love letter to my large, soft, magnificent body

Hi there. I forget you are me, sometimes. The other day I was listening to one of my favorite therapists/podcasters talk about embodiment and how easily we separate our consciousness from the bodies we inhabit. What a fascinating idea, I thought. Until this moment I wasn’t aware there was any other way to exist! TheContinue reading “a love letter to my large, soft, magnificent body”